I'm so tired and I can feel those knots developing in my shoulders. I walked in this morning, sat in front of my desk and exhaled a few times. It still didn't work. I'm trying to look forward to a positive day but its damn near impossible. All that I can think about is her condescending ass walking in here looking at her watch and frowning. I think I'm going to keep this schedule permanent so that I can clock her like she clocks me.

 

 

On the upside of things, I spoke with C last night. We spoke until I started dosing off at around 3 or 4 am. I can't stop thinking about her. I'm trying to pace myself n really quit thinking of her the way I do.

Last night she asked me if we were dating. I don't quite know how to answer that question. I kinda don't want a relationship but I do want to continue talking to her. I just feel that if there isn't a name to it things are much more easygoing. It's like she has no obligations to me and I have none to her.