Because she wants to fuck me, we can't be friends. She's managed to block me on all accounts. I'm perturbed by that. I'm perturbed by the fact that I actually give a shit. I value her friendship. But sometimes it feels like that friendship comes with strings attached -- like I have to fuck her in order to truly gain acceptance or understanding from her. Why's it such a big deal if I don't call you within a 24 hour time frame? And how fucking selfish can you be that you decide I should drop my fucking phone call for you because "in your mind" you're giving me that good rubber dick? I don't think so. I don't ask you to get off the phone with your friends so why ask me to do the same with mine. Why can't I ever have a girlfriend that's not selfish? Wait a minute; she was never my girlfriend which makes this entire CHARADE even more asinine.
Therapy
About Me
- Meshia
- I guess I’m still finding my self even at this age. I’m not a preppyrockstar nor am I a hip-hop bandit I’m just Meesh. I pride myself on being as open-minded as humanly possible and being able to adapt to my environment. But you have to wonder at times how much is too much? What shall it profit a man to gain the whole world, yet lose his soul? I want to adapt. I just don’t want to conform because that would place me in a box and Lord knows I’m claustrophobic. My blog won’t be like anyone else’s, It won’t necessarily contain random black n white editorial shots and there won’t be any blood splatters across the page. It’ll simply tell you about my thought processes. It'll show you where I've been and hopefully show you (not so much you but me) where I'm going. All things considered, this is a constant and daily reminder of my downfalls and my triumphs. Hope you find it enlightening.
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